Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you.

My John.  Of course, lots of people would say DUH, when I put pictures of my husband, but let me explain.  In a lot of ways, John has HEALED me.  We are so perfect for each other.  I came into our marriage with a lot of issues from having a...rough childhood.  He spent so many many late nights with me up crying trying to work through them, and trying to change.  He has helped me grow in so many ways.  Now that I am 'grown' I have other chemical imbalances that make it hard to be married to me.  Sometimes my thyroid makes my hormones crazy, and I have problems with depression.  He's always there for me.  Whether it's to cuddle me and calm me, or give me a blessing, or even to just close the door and leave me alone, he's there.  I admire him so much because he ALWAYS sees the bright side of things, and he is always so positive.  I have told him that most men would've left me by now because I can be so difficult.  But he hasn't,  because Heavenly Father gave me my problems, and then he made John for me to help me with them.  He is so awesome, and I love him lots.

Day 06- A hobby you have.

I am feeling so lame.  I am thinking of OLD hobbies, but I feel like I don't do anything anymore...wah wah.  I used to do this:

And this:

 

Now that I think about it, I do this:

I have become a bread baking fool, and I love it.  Good, homemade bread is so rewarding and satisfying. Wow, that makes  me sound weird.

Now that I've created this post, I feel lazy.  3 kids have totally done me in.  PLUS with my thyroid issues, I pretty much always feel so tired and lazy.  It's really lame.  I am so far off the wagon.  I'd like to get back on the wagon, but I think I need to build a new one first, that's how far off I am . wah wah.

I'll wait and get back on though when I'm pneumonia recovered.  I had 2 'normal' days in a row and my chest and ribs are hurting again, and I'm starting to cough stuff up again.  It's almost like I'm MEANT to feel like crap all the time.  wah wah.

(sorry, I think yesterdays post and todays posts both seem totally negative. I'm not feeling negative, just tired.  Maybe I should become a morning blogger.)

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Catalina Island.  We went there on our honeymoon.  It was wonderful and fabulous and I want to go back.  I think it would be funner now.  When we got married I was young (19), so I got a little homesick (silly, I know).  So I think it would be much funner now.  Plus, we love each other more now than we did then (TEN YEARS AGO!).  And we need the break even worse!  (do I use parenthesis alot?)

Day 04- List 15 songs that represent your life’s soundtrack.

Honestly, who can think of 15 songs off of the top of their head that represent there life?  I think this one is totally dumb.  But anyway, I will try a little...

1. ......

Nope, I'm already done, I'm super tired (yes, at 8:45) and I just can't pull songs out of the top of my head like that right now...or ever probably. 

Anyway, today was my most active day since having pneumonia, and it was HARD.  I was getting out of breath so easily, and then being out of breath was making me have chest pains, and it was super lame.  I guess I'm not fully recovered.  wah wahhhhh. 

Maybe sometimes (like right now), I shouldn't blog, cause I'm tired and boring.

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Okay, sorry.  Here's something funny, so you'll want to come back:
(sorry it's all little, maybe if you click on it??)

Day 03- A habit that you wish you didn’t have.

Oh boy, which one to pick, which one to pick......


I pick hang nails SO bad.  I pick them so bad they get all bloody and hurt so bad, but I just can't stop.  And John hates it to and totally gets mad at me. 
I have a lot more habits than that that are bad though, trust me!

Day 02- A picture of something you cannot live without.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.

 (John and I at the Stake Valentines Day Luau)

I honestly don't know if there are 15 interesting things about me, but I'll try!

1. I love to bake bread.  This week, I have been baking 1 loaf a day out of my Bread Bible cookbook, and giving them away to the people who brought us meals when I was sick.

2. I have a very under active thyroid, and that's why I'm fat. (not interesting, just stupid)

3. I want lots of kids, like 6, and people are constantly judging me for wanting that many, and it makes me super mad.

4. My heart lives in Cedar City, Ut, even though I haven't lived there for 4 years.

5. I love to quilt....although it's been a while.

6. When John and I grow up, we dream of opening a bed and breakfast together.  Preferably one in Cedar City.

7. My 5 person family lives in a 2 bdrm duplex. And I don't find it fun.

8. I own a piano, but can hardly play it.  To everything a season....

This is hard....

9. I love to co sleep with my little ones AND nurse them until they are a year.  And people think I'm weird for both of these.

10. I think that scrapbooking is a super lame waste of time.

11. I couldn't cross my eyes until I was 24.

12. I love to do yard work, it makes me happy because it makes something look nicer AND it leaves me feeling exercised.  In Cedar City, I mowed the yard at 9 months pregnant, and people were all, 'ohhh you shouldn't do that."  If I only had a yard right now...

13. I can't draw.  My 5 year old can draw better than me.

14. I am a picker. I LOVE to pick at stuff, (hangnails, stickers, zits (tim) etc..)  and it drives John crazy.

15. I LOVE to watch movies.

30-Day Challenge!

So I just found this on my friends blog, and I'm totally going to try and do it...starting tomorrow. heh.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.

Day 02- A picture of something you cannot live without.

Day 03- A habit that you wish you didn’t have.

Day 04- List 15 songs that represent your life’s soundtrack.

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to.

Day 06- A hobby you have.

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you.

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why.

Day 09- Something/someone you’re proud of.

Day 10- A story about a past relationship.

Day 11- A picture of something you dislike.

Day 12- A picture of your room & don’t cheat by cleaning it. Share a secret.

Day 13- Write a letter telling someone something you could never tell them.

Day 14- A picture of something you ate and 10 confessions.

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle & share the first 10 songs that play.

Day 16- Something you could live without.

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have.

Day 19- Nicknames you have & how or why you have them.

Day 20- If you had 3 wishes, what would they be.

Day 21- Share a picture from your day.

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else.

Day 23- What is something you crave.

Day 24- Share a story about your past that you are ashamed of.

Day 25- What I would find in your bag.

Day 26- Places you want to visit before you die.

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned.

Day 30- A picture of you today & 20 goals you want to accomplish.

My Lily

I am SO thankful for my sweet little Lily right now.  Let me back up at tell you why.

Last night, at 4 am, John gets out of bed, John NEVER gets out of bed in the middle of the night.  So, I lay there and wait for it.  He pukes.  He comes back to bed and I say something to him about him being sick, and I am SURE there were curse words.  I couldn't really sleep the rest of the night, he kept getting up to puke.  But mostly, I couldn't sleep because I was SO upset that we had a new bug in our house, and that the caretaker was sick.

After Maya got up at 7 or so, I nursed her, and took her into the girls who were watching cartoons.  I told them that I was still sick, and that John was up all night puking  and I was going back to bed for a while.  Fast forward to 10 am with Maya crying and knocking on our door.  I feed her and put her down again and go out.  Lily happily reports that she got everyone breakfast, bagels and cereal.  She put Maya in her high chair, cleaned her up, got her down.  Then she said, 'doesn't the kitchen look exactly the same as it did last night?"  (The kitchen is NOT in good shape, but that's besides the point).  She had put there bowls in the sink and cleaned up everything, and she was so proud.  Then lunchtime rolled around, and I got really nauseated, I profusely apologized to Lily, but I had to go lay down in bed until it passsed.  (nausea is common for me right now).  I asked her if she wanted me to help her make lunch before I went to bed, and she said, 'that's okay mom, I've got it".  She insisted she was sure.  When I went to bed, John was awake and saying he was feeling well enough to take over again.  I layed in bed and told him about his wonderful Lily.  It made me have tears, because she is so fabulous.  She will be 6 in June, only 6, but she is so wonderful, big and responsible.  She has helped us SO much in these weeks that I've been sick, it's so overwhelming.  And the thing is, she likes to do it.  She likes to help.  When I went back to bed, Izzy was arguing with her about something, I told her that Lily was in charge right now, and that it was like Lily was the mom.  And I know that I can say that, even with her at 5, and know that she won't abuse the power and be bossy to her sister.  She is just so amazing and wonderful, there are no words.

In other news, I'm not really a 'luggie hocker' if you will.  I have a huge aversion to it. I know that it's super gross to just cough it up and swallow it down....grosser than hocking them up even.  But I just can't do it.  Today I accidentaly coughed one up, and it was bloody.  So I've been coughing them up, and they are all bloody.  It's not like I'm coughing up just blood...it's bloody mucas.  So anyway, that worries me.  Even though it could have been going on for a week, and I just didn't know it, it is still worrysome.  I looked on google, and that can be a symptom of pneumonia, but still.  I have a check up w/my grouchy pants insta care dr tomorrow, we'll see what she says.  I just hope it's usual pneumonia symptoms and she's like, no biggie, and sends me home.  I've had it with being sick and i've had it with hospitals.

I would like everyone to do me a favor.  Tomorrow, when you are at your worst part of the day, doing something you hate, like cleaning the kitchen or folding laundry or scrubbing the toilet for the millionth time, think of me, and just be glad you can do it.  I'm not trying to be dramatic, but my house is a pit, and I'd be so thankful if I could feel well enough to clean it right now.

Disclaimer:  I took my percocet (to help me not cough) an hour ago planning on going to bed.  Anything that doesn't make sense in this entry is a product of that.

My story of Sick

Oh my gosh, I said i was sick before, but now that I have pneumonia, I am so much sicker than I was before.  On Monday,Maya's dr. sent us to the Er with her, because she wasn't wetting any diapers and she was so fussy.  She wanted to admit her in the pediatric unit, but they were very full.  So we got to go to the ER with her.  She got an IV (kept it in an hour until she ripped it out and blood was pouring everywhere), she also got a chest x/ray revealing that she has pneumonia.  We were only at the ER  about 6 hours and then they sent us home. 

On TUESDAY, started feeling sick again.  After I tucked the kids into bed, I developed a fever.  My fever rose very rapidly and no meds would get it to go down.  At about 10:00 John decided that he'd had enough.  (I probably layed  on the couch uncontrollably crying for like 2 hours at this point.)  He called someone (THANK YOU JAXON!) To come over to take me to the ER.  I really didn't want to go, but I'm glad he made me.  They gave me motrin and an IV, but the motrin didn't bring my fever down, so they ended up giving me percoset to bring my fever down.  That's one heavy fever.  We came home at 4 am.  Despite my complaints of chest pain, they didn't take x-rays or anything.

On WEDNESDAY my chest started hurting and I couldn't stop coughing stuff up.  So at 5pm, we went to InstaCare.  The dr. was super rude and was all, 'if you were in the er last night, than why are you here tonight"  um....cause i'm worse.  My right ribs and back were hurting so bad.  So they did an x-ray.  And It was + for pneumonia.  So they gave me an antibiotics shot and prescription.  They also gave me a percoset RX so that I could sleep at night and not have my rib pain. 

Since Tues night, I haven't been able to be vertical at all, (until this moment) or else I get super nauseous with chills.  I have also been having violent chills and then sweats due to my fever. 

The Dr. told me I should try to nurse Maya as little as possible for my own good, because nursing is really hard on your body, and i am having a horrible time trying to stay hydrated.  I totally agree with her.  Except that Maya is still not really wetting any diapers, even after getting 6 oz of IV.  So I am fighting to keep TWO people hydrated, which I feel has been totally unsuccessful

Right now the fam is at Lily's Kindergarten play, which makes me heartbroken that I have to miss.  Lily is sad about it to, but what do you do?

I just might be sicker than I've ever been in my entire life.

I may die.

Something funny, and then something not...

This joke is SO my husband:

Don’t ask a computer programmer to go shopping

A wife asks her husband, a computer programmer; “Could you please go to the store for me and buy one carton of milk, and if they have eggs, get 6!”
A short time later the husband comes back with 6 cartons of milk.
The wife asks him, “Why the hell did you buy 6 cartons of milk?”
He replied, “They had eggs.”

He is like that so bad, and it drives me INSANE!

In other news, the 'respiratory flu', has turned into the stomach flu today.  So apparently, I AM going to die.

Special shout out to HEIDI who brought a lasagna, which is currently cooking for the fam.

I only died a leeetle.

Oh man, people.  OHHHHH MAANNN.  I do not even REMEMBER the last time I was as sick as this past week.  It was so brutal.  Now I totally understand the whole 'flu shot' thing.  Before I was like, "what? you get sick, and then you get better, who needs a shot?"  Now I'm like, I need that damn shot and I need it now!  (I swore, what?  I was SICK)  The sad part is that I am still totally not better.  I still feel like crap, BUT I can get off the couch, so that is total progress.  Does anyone else feel like when they nurse it takes FOREVER to get better?  I do.  And I hate it.  I'm sick and my body is like nooooooo and wanting to shut down and not eat.  And then my boobs are all foooooooood.  And in case you didn't know this about me, boobs ALWAYS win.  So it was a miserable experience and I STILL can't get full now that my supply is dwindling.

On Monday I was forced to can the strawberry jam before the strawberries got older.  Luckily, my awesome husband totally helped and we canned 45 half pints of strawberry jam, and it's good!

My house is basically the pit of despair.  Like, for real.  For some reason, when the husband stays home because mom is sick, they think it's just to make sure the kids don't die or something.  Not to clean, not to cook, oh no.  I really shouldn't say that, esp if he were to find out...I'd be busted.  He DID do some stuff, but I guess he's not super human the way moms are.  My estimate is that the house will continue to be the pit of despair for the rest of the week, because I totally still feel like crap.  oh, and because now Maya's got the fever.  She is a sad pile.

I am planning on commencing the whole usual blogging thing again.  It just so happened i haven't had a sense of humor in a week.